After leaving Adelaide for 4 months for my 'post-grad rest period ' , I am back to this small city this morning. Once came out from the airport, the cool breeze immediately reminded me that the coldness in Adelaide is on my least favourite lists. I remembered 4 years ago, about the same time, I came to this quiet and relaxing town (okay,maybe a little boring) with a few high school graduates girls. We were all excited and so ready to experience the new Aussie adventures life. Four years were not a long time, but long enough to see many chances in life, like half of my cousins were married (including my only sister) and have kids. I suddenly become an Aunt to so many nieces and nephews. It was weird but I enjoyed being around with all these little cuties. Four years were long enough helping me to realise that relationships of all kind are fragile and easily break if we don't make sure we make effort to take good care of them. And certainly long enough to teach me looked at life from many different perspectives.
I don't know how much I have changed in the past 4 years (not physically for sure since quite a few people told me I still look the same and yes, I do wonder what is 'the same' means? still young-looking? still nerdy look? still plain jane look?), but I know I don't feel like that what-is-the-world-out-there-look-like-20 years old girl any more. Now I am more like the what-is-my-future-holds-for-me girl who is confused if I am making the right decision of coming back here. I have doubt. But it is also the 'doubt' that allows me to put my guts together and come back here to give another shot. After all, I never know until I try. I need to turn all the negatives feelings I received recently into willpower. Time to act!!
Quiet Adelaide early in the morning